I am born on 4th September, 1991 at 4:47AM in Mumbai. I have an elder sister and a younger brother(pretty much an unwanted girl child). I am always treated badly by family members, I don’t have any friends either. No matter what I do, I am constantly ridiculed and made to feel insignificant. I have become very bitter and feel this constant emptiness inside me. I am always sad and have terrible thoughts, I wish I didn’t exist or would cease to exist.
Since childhood I have heard that I am constantly wrong, useless and fat, it is literally filled in my brain now and my actions coincide with this information which now feels like a fact. My career has been haphazard too. I have recently started a Youtube Channel and even in that if anything good happens, my brother and parents take all the credit, if anything goes wrong, I am blamed. I am constantly told that I need to lose weight, else people will see me and laugh on Youtube. I don’t show myself on the channel at all, except my hands(I feel very conscious about that too). I generally have a broad structure, shoulders, hands, legs everything and terrible dark circles(probably because of my weak sun??))
I am currently jobless and want to pursue my Youtube Channel Full time. I feel if I do better monetarily and lose weight, they will accept me better?
Will I ever be loved, healthy and successful?
I have been depressed and in a very bad mental state with no one to understand me, let alone help or support me.
First of all ,your heart is broken and there is hollowness in your mind due to lack of self confidence. I'm not here to console you but to help you get rid of this hazardous complications. You're in the phase of weak mental state and lack of confidence and clarity in life leading you to think like tRead more
First of all ,your heart is broken and there is hollowness in your mind due to lack of self confidence. I’m not here to console you but to help you get rid of this hazardous complications. You’re in the phase of weak mental state and lack of confidence and clarity in life leading you to think like this. I have seen your horoscope which has great potential which i would come at it later on. Firstly, talking about You Tube. you know there are many You Tubers who are fat or suffering from obese but they continue their progress and improvement even after these deficiency and ultimately they overcome all these insecurities and finds their goal and purpose in life. Point 1 -Do not ever think that you’re life is useless or without any meaning and purpose. God has made you human in this birth and no human birth is without any significance or purpose. In coming years you have lot to achieve and fulfill your dreams. It’s in your mind that if family members do not appreciate your work or make nasty comments on your physical constitution then everybody does. In today’s time where women empowerment is at its peak there will be much more support and friendship you’ll find on You Tube with logical solutions and correct advises with some suggestion and appreciation in comment section if you full present yourself on you tube physically by showing your face and body and pouring your heart out. There will be some bastards chirps who may comment nasty things but trust me 95% of your comment section will be full of appreciations if you present yourself just the way you are come out in poen on you tube and try to grow your channel with good content.
But, For that you first have to love and accept yourself the way you are. You’re in the search of love and appreciation but for achieving that you must first learn to love yourself and accept yourself with full confidence and courage. Confidence and courage will take you long way. You just need to take the first step. I have seen many people gone through what you’re presently going through at this time but they pulled themselves up and now they are celebrities and even in my neighbourhood many of them now doing so well in their with much success and prosperity.
First love yourself, and do Judge everyone with same glasses. I’m a young boy and i just adore girls -women either with chubbyness or spectacles as i find them cute and virtuous.
Another thing, Dark circles do not come with malefic Sun but a Strong sun in horoscope gives little amount of dark circles. This is astrological facts with Verification. I have seen your horoscope as well
Sun is very well posited there. Dark circles usually come from overthinking, stress, malnutrition or mot proper diet consumption along with lack of sleep during day and night.
As per your Horoscope, Sun, Mercury, Jupiter is absolutely brilliant and will give much success and prosperity along with materialistic gains and pleasure from the age of 30.
By the way your married life will have utmost blossoming romance with much love, care and support from your future spouse. You will wealthy with your own efforts.
Sun in 2nd house of wealth in its own sign suggest much bank balance after some dejection and failure. Success will follow you like your shadow from the age of 31. But you have to struggle hard till the age of 30.
7th lord in 7th house gives successful marriage but with delay. Married life will be stable long lasting but you should marry after age of 33. Venus in 1st house will give you very loving spouse.
at present, Saturn Main period and Venus sub period is running and you will see big change and transformation in your life from December 2020. So Start working hard and do not waste time about thinking what your family members does or say. Do not crave for love attention but crave for courage, confidence, self-improvement and brilliance. Love and attention is bound to come in your life in coming 2 years. So, back yourself and fortune will favour you in coming years. God has special plans for you so wait, and concentrate on your priorities, career, You Tube. In coming years, you will be on cloud nine.
Presently, You must focus on loving yourself and just yourself and follow your hobby and dreams. Thank You Good luck(You can mention your you tube channel if you can as i’ll see and subscribe it.)
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